I only wish my new job was in a hotel this creepy – looking.

I think I found a job ridiculously well suited  to me … I’m going to be a night auditor at a hotel. The shift runs from 11p – 7a. The work load sounds extrememly manageable, especially once I’ve been trained and have settled into the routine. The charming owner/operator who hired me is perfectly comfortable with the idea of me bringing my laptop along to use however I see fit, after my regular assigned tasks are done. Pretty sweet deal for a writer, huh?

Tonight I’m thinking about books I can load onto my e-reader, because that seems like a good way to pass the dead hours as well. Obviously, it’s time to re-read The Shining. I also found this:

The Haunted Hotel was published in 1879. Its author, Wilke Collins, also penned the classic, The Woman in White.

The entire text of The Haunted Hotel is available, free to download, at Project Gutenberg.

I think I already love this Wilke guy:

“The dull people decided years and years ago, as everyone knows, that novel-writing was the lowest species of literary exertion, and that novel reading was a dangerous luxury and an utter waste of time.”
— Wilkie Collins, My Miscellanies


Phantom phantoms.

Last night, before I settled in at the computer to make my nightly post, I saw a phantom figure of a young girl in the hallway upstairs.

Phantom may refer to:
Ghost, in traditional belief, a physical manifestation of the soul or spirit of a deceased person
Illusion, a distortion of the senses
(Wikipedia)

It was late, of course. All the living souls – human and animal – in my house had been asleep for  hours. As usual, I was tidying the bathroom as I brushed my teeth. I adjusted the shower curtain, wiped off the edge of the tub, straightened the bath mat. I turned toward the sink so I could spit out my mouthful of foam. From the corner of my eye, I saw the girl – simply standing – just beyond the threshold of the open bathroom door.

She was wearing a pastel nightgown. (Pink? Peach? Yellow? Certainly very pale.) Its bodice was smocked; its sleeves were short and puffed; its hem reached mid-shin. The girl’s bangs obscured her face because, I think, she was looking at the floor. By the time I registered what I had seen, and wrenched my neck to look directly at her, she was gone.

I do not believe I saw a ghost.  Nor an apparition – at least not in the usual sense. (I mused on the difference between ghosts and apparitions in my post I am not a ghost hunter.) In the ten years I’ve lived in this house, I have never sensed a spirit presence. My cats have never stared into empty corners. My children have never complained of boogie-men in the closets. I have no reason to believe my home is haunted.

Besides, I know what happened. I saw the girl because I needed to be reminded of one of my quirks.

When tired – spacey tired, I mean – I’ve seen all sorts of things. Things like a bowl falling (but not really) off the edge of a counter when I go to fetch another soda from the fridge, or a pedestrian strolling the shoulder of deserted road when I’m driving at midnight.

I’m not a good sleeper. Never have been. It’s hard for me to sustain slumber. As a child, I sleepwalked. As a teenager, I had nightmares. As a young mother, I had to check on the children, multiple times, throughout the night.

Even harder than staying asleep, though, is falling asleep. My mind doesn’t like to shut down so – when I fail to keep it busy with other things – it keeps itself awake by gnawing on all my fears and worries. I believe this problem is common to many adults, but for me it’s been true since I was little.

I used to wait about an hour after being tucked in, then pretend to fall out of bed, so that my mother would come switch on the radio to lull me back to sleep. It helped, but often listening to music wasn’t enough to quiet my mind. Then I would think of sad things, so that I could cry, which made me sleepy. (I adored songs like One Tin Soldier and Seasons in the Sun.) As soon as I could, I read anything I could get my hands on – including, I swear, hundreds of Harlequins – until my eyes burned. (Which worked just about as well as a good cry.)

I spent most of my childhood being really, god-awful, exhausted … and seeing a whole host of not-real things.

Somewhere around the age of 13-14, I discovered that I could painlessly drift off while watching television. I’ve rarely since slept in a room that didn’t have one.

In recent years, I’ve mostly figured out how to avoid becoming spacey-tired. I’ve convinced myself that my children are probably breathing. (Now that they are 25 and 16.) I’ve become a connoisseur of documentary narrators. (Peter Coyote and Paul Winfield are the best of the best.)

Since I recommitted to writing fiction and blogging, however, I’ve been getting by on less and less sleep. I checked my sleep log today, and discovered that in the last week I averaged five hours a night. Apparently that is not enough. When I saw the little girl last night, I realized that I have to be careful – even if I’m very much enjoying my new schedule. I won’t be a very reliable paranormalist if I keep this up.

RCA Indian Head Test Card ca. 1940

Go to sleep, already.


Too much blood and sleep, not enough tiny little ape-people.

In recent weeks, I’ve been needing an average of 5-7 hours of sleep in a given 24 hour period. Because I’ve been under the weather lately, I’ve been getting a daily extra hour or two.

Until today. Today I slept at least 14 hours.

I meant to go to bed early last night – I stepped away from the computer by 3a. As I puttered around the dark, quiet house getting ready for bed, however, I cut myself – badly. Stanching the flow of blood and cleaning up my mess took some time. At six o’clock this morning, my husband found me awake on the sofa, looking freaked out and woozy. After he examined my bandage and assured me that I was fine, I tipped over and slept for five and a half hours. Which is about right.

Then the day happened. We shopped. We did laundry. I took the dog for a sniffing-walk. I worked on the novel for a bit. Etcetera. Then, at about 7p, we settled in to watch some TV. I fired up a show about orang pendek – a cryptid from Sumatra that seems strikingly similar to the “hobbit” of Flores. (I have been fascinated by Homo floresiensis since its discovery in 2004.)

cast of Homo floresiensis compared to a microc...

cast of Homo floresiensis compared to a microcephalic skull

I didn’t make it all the way through the program. I woke at 3a, feeling both refreshed and discombobulated. I have no idea what this is going to do to my schedule, but I bet I’ll get a hell of a lot done today.